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Today was what I thought would be the most chaotic day in my life in 3 months.
(What I expected was a lot of walking between the two hospitals, that are at the two ends of this city, going to office and back and walking to dad and back and all those walking without any success of consulting a doctor)
Got up early to get a doctors appointment for dad whos here for a check up. I knew getting an appointment will be a hassle. It was. I didnt get an appointment. (partially because I overslept and partially because medical services in Maldives sucks ass)
But guess what? I didnt feel guilty. Me, normally the dude who gets anxiety attacks for the smallest problem related to family... didnt get none today! I wasnt worried at all. Everything seemed perfect. I will go and get an appointment for dad tomorrow and everything will hopefully be good.
huh! Such a relief to have a nice day!
PS; I got a call from my sister, Dhontha, who lectured me not to smoke and do prayers regularly and to clean my room and be tidy and stuff! Which is a regular thing for her and mom that gives me headaches at the most busy times.
But today it was different!...it was beautiful. She was so kind and warming in her lecture. And I loved every second of it. Such beautiful flow of scoldings and well wishes combined together! I mean it. It was so lovely...
Love you Dhonthi!

I grew up loving environment. I love nature. And I do believe we humans are destroying it, slowly. But suddenly, today I felt ashamed to talk about saving environment. I was lost. where did my love for environment go?
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Outside the point;
The environmental NGO 350.org conducted a worldwide campaign yesterday to mark October 24th as an "international day for climate action" according to them. They opened up registration of activities from all around the world that got a neat response i must say. And then comes my story...
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Maldives, being the lowest lying piece of land on earth, has always been concerned about environment, has taken part in the smallest environmental campaigns and conducts activities throughout the year to remember the importance of environment and save it. Then came the 350 campaign. And the people were crazy. So was the government.
An underwater cabinet dive that got the world attention on the small country. (you can read about that everywhere on the net if you want). All major broadcasters were here to do the live coverage. It went so well. I thought we were finally heard. It was on the 17th of October.
That was the prelude. Then came the real bash! 24th of October! Oh my God! 24 hour long dive underwater with underwater chess, underwater sleeping, underwater drumming, underwater lectures, underwater formations, underwater dances... say anything with underwater and they did it. 24 hours of non-stop craze underwater while the people who couldn't go for a swim, perhaps, conducted rallies on the ground, awareness programs and plantation programs and then suddenly.... It all looked meaningless. So meaningless. A show. A drama. Cheap.
Are they concerned? Who is concerned? Concerned for what? Are they raising voices to save earth OR are they simply trying to get some attention?
All I saw was shame. Lame attempts. Enthusiasm gone showbiz. Love gone business.
This event, for me, was a perfect example of the saying, "Too much of anything is good for nothing"
PS; this is just my point of view.

I have tried to bring a new look to my blog for a while. And I fail every time. I just end up doing a new banner. This time I wanted a real change. So I invested some quality "Awake" time during the night designing a simple background that took about 3 minutes and redesigning the whole page. This is how it looked like.
Ps; Any resemblance to Photoshop CS4 splash screen is purely unintentional and the result of helpless infatuation towards the awesome application.

Comes the morning
When I can feel
That there's nothing left to be concealed
Moving on a scene surreal
No, my heart will never
Will never be far from here

Sure as I am breathing
Sure as I'm sad
I'll keep this wisdom in my flesh
I leave here believing more than I had
And there's a reason I'll be
A reason I'll be back

As I walk
The Hemisphere
I've got my wish
To up and disappear

I've been wounded
I've been healed
Now for landing I've been
Landing I've been cleared

Sure as I'm breathing
Sure as I'm sad
I'll keep this wisdom
In my flesh

I leave here believing
More than I had
This Love has got
No Ceiling

Woah! My friends could mouthfart real bad! Never knew this before.

Cant sleep at night. Ramadan working schedule and Anbalan Program's hard work totally disrupted my sleeping schedule. (or the clock inside me as Hana would call it). Damn! This feels so horrible. Its 3:57 in the morning. I been trying to sleep for an hour already. Last night I got off bed after 3 hours of rolling side to side. I could only sleep when im tired as hell and that seems to be after something like 12 hours of being up. woah! This is so crazy. I have nothing to do. Dont feel like doing anything. Not the mood.
Uhh well... just another crazy lonely night! Gotta go get myself busy doing nothing at all! Bye! take care!
Ohh! and i forgot to say.... Do follow your inside clock. Sleep regularly.

Stupid fucks! Staring and glaring at me like im an alien!
Uhh, for gods sake!
Im travelling back to male after a good time at vilingili beach with my friends. And these, dirty ugly rats are staring their balls out at me! Esp the heideous horrid dude with the black turtle neck t-shirt. Hate every sec of this!

uhh welll... couldnt go picnic leaving the program. damn!!

Hi!
Its been a long time since my last post. Even i thought i quit blogging.
But... Here i am. Back to timething.
First of all, Eid Mubarak to all!
As for the picnic, my bro called me this morning to ask if i would go to a nearby island for one day to celebrate Eid. Well, it would've been a definite yes if it wasnt for Anbalan - the program we were making on the occasion of eid. Uhh! That reminds me, didnt sleep at all last night. Im tired as hell. But i need a break from office. Then again, im scared the Anbalan program might not go well if i aint here to watch over the editing process, since im the producer. Sigh! Anyways, the assistance producer said okay. So im here in my bros place, waiting for the departure.
Im stil not sure i will be going.

dissatisfied, disgusted
distressed, discomforted
discouraged, discredited
discriminated, disturbed
disgraced
died
disappeared